For now, my concentration and hopes and care, all go to keeping Merlin , here, with me.
With us, Minette is worried too.
He is so old. But he is so dear .. I am really not ready for any more sad goodbyes.
He made me a little more cheerful this morning when I crawled under my bed where he lies on a bed made just for him, and I fed him, by hand, piece by piece .. he drank some water and was purring.
My heart just about broke .. from worry, fear, and hope .. my poor heart, how much more can it take ?
Sadly , there is nowhere, no one who can provide a shoulder to cry on, comfort of any sort ..
Sadly there is someone who added to my sadness by being an a**hole in an email, an immature, bitchy person .. guys can be bitchy too.
So I lay in bed at night and listen to the cats, purring, breathing and think, plot, plan and try to figure out the way the this New Year will be spent ... where it will be spent .. how it will be spent is pretty much all up to me.
No one else.
The Others can only make me more eager to leave or stay.
For now, it is all about Merlin.
He and Minette and Honey and I will figure things out and go on from there ...
I send Wishes for a Fabulous New Year to you all. . full of Love and Happiness and Good Health and someone to share it with.
Whether it is a 2 legged or 4 legged someone ... it is the Love that matters.
Merlin , my Love
Minette my brave little warrior
Happy New Year to all ...