My new life.
I haven't quite gotten the hang of it yet and find myself stopping in the middle of something and getting lost in memories, thoughts, tears. I go through bouts of black despair and then someone calls and tells me they will be coming to visit and bringing a small little smiling sweetie baby with them and my heart is a tiny bit lighter.
But even then, there is that wish at the back of my mind, If only he was here to see this too.
Every day I drive past this church. It is nice to know that something this beautiful was kept and cared for and is still used.
Everywhere you look, there they are.
Lately I have been wishing I was here. The old neighbors send sweet notes and make me cry.
"Making me cry" is easy these days . But I do miss Buenos Aires. We were so happy there.
A neighbor. I like the Highland Cattle and their babies better.
My old neighbors. I miss them. I miss that life. We were so happy.
The last of the work that we started, is being done today in our house.
I will have lights where there were none and the new locks are in and the new doors and windows and I have no money but the place is secure and looks much better.
It is just lacking one thing.
:-( so sad and sorry for your loss. Take care
ReplyDeleteGlad to see you back to your blog. Enjoy that little one!
ReplyDeleteTime with family is what you need right now.
Because of a recent death in my family, we are all getting together on Thanksgiving....we seem to need to do it.
Enjoy your time with your grandson. It will be bittersweet I know, but it will do you good to have some company, and a sweet baby needing all those hugs you have to give to someone.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, even though I don't know you,
Hugs from Holland,
Hetismij
Candice, it will be 6 years in December when I lost jerry. It doesn't seem that long because there are always things to remind me. every once in awhile, like yesterday, I thought I heard him arriving home calling out his long drawn out, "Hi".
ReplyDeleteI've learned to embrace these things.
mimi, the cigale that sings
Glad that you are writing. The road is stony and choked with leaves but you are on your journey! MtV.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss Candice. I'm sending comforting hugs to you. I'm glad you're near family, and hearing from good friends in Argentina.
ReplyDeleteSending you positive thoughts and praying that you each day will bring with it a reason for you to smile - during this time of healing. A little baby is sure to help with this. You are strong my friend... xo C. (HHL)
ReplyDeleteHoping the wee baby will help to brighten your world...
ReplyDeleteI think about you ALL THE TIME...
Even though we have never "met"...I feel that a friend is hurting...and needs some love♥
Linda :o)
Checking in on you this morning as you are on my mind and in my heart always. Sending you healing energy... sending you heartfelt love. ~Colette
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, and sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're back and i hope that blogging here brings you some measure of comfort. The photos are beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThanking of you,
Mel
Will continue for you to pray for you each day. If prayers were hugs you'd be covered with them. You share you heart so tenderly. Please keep writng.
ReplyDeleteMarilyn
Thinking of you, cherie. I'm happy you're thinking of the happy parts...
ReplyDeleteHugging you from afar Candice!
ReplyDeletePlease continue to blog - we need to know you are doing OK - we care.
Mary X
Sending you big hugs! OOO.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss, please accept my sincere sympathy and condolence. I send positive thoughts your way. Take care, and it is good to see you writing
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