Ms Fixit

It is a good thing no one can see me or hear me.
I am sneering with disgust at the computer and I have been calling it all kinds of names. For hours.
I want to throw it out but I am not that unhinged.
And while I am fed up disgusted and tired of computer BS ... I am sad.
My husband would quietly sit down, fix it quickly, give me a kiss and go back to whatever it was he was doing .. reading or watching the news or planning some more travel.
It is times like this that it takes everything I have not to just give up, lie down and weep .. then weep some more.
I miss him so much anyway but being alone ALL the time then needing advice or help with the stupid computer just makes me want to give up.
The cats aren't even in here, where they always gather when Mommy is on the machine... usually with pretty music playing ..

All I wanted to do was clean junk out of the computer. It is yahoos fault. They changed things, causing me to change things etc.

I like gmail but I have always used Yahoo when I read news, weather and whatever.
This morning there was a hint of possible trouble .. a good computer with its security plus all on .. started behaving as if there was something going on ..
I did a virus scan.
Somethings turned up.
I deleted things and emptied trash * I know I am going to be looking for those things later*..

Now I am not sure of the machine and not sure of me.

Plus .. people use their computers for things that need security and I have no way of knowing if I am still safe and secure ... you never know, someone will want all those cat photos and recipes !

So that has been my day.
That and having an old cat that is suddenly acting old and making me nervous.
And 2 young cats that hang around him and make sure he has company ... Minette is especially bonded to him .. Honey too .. sweet babies.
I have decreed that Merlin lives to be a record breaking Oldest Cat in the World.
So I have to go watch over him some more now and be sure he   remembers that goal.
Besides, my heart can break only so many times before it is irreparable ..

Pussycat Pussycat Where Have You Been ......

                                                   I can't let my cats see this.

Monday Monday

So, today I wasted time I will never get back. I knew better, I should have listened to my inner self saying Don't start ! You will regret it !!
And I went ahead and changed my passwords and made a big mess of my computer.

I hate passwords.
I have some that are easy to remember, they mean things.
People warn me not to use well known to the rest of the world, names  ... or anyone or anything.

But but ... I need short easy things that I will remember every day even in the early morning half asleep.
I am terrified of "screwing things up" ...  I look for kindness in the people I bank with and those that answer phones for things...

So I won't do anything more today, I will give it time but I think I will have to change the new names to something old or like something old or just give up.
I am something old. I am feeling it every day.

But I bought Lottery tickets today anyway ... I never expect to win but I love the expression
"You never know " ... It's true .. you never know.

Wishing everyone good luck in whatever you do , good weather because it is so gloomy here ! and a good week ... look at those days ahead of you as unknown treats and possibilities, lying in wait .

Happy Monday ~     https://youtu.be/h81Ojd3d2rY?t=4

Kitten Time

And you wonder why I have cats ......

The View

On the street where we used to live.
In New Jersey.
We lived in this wonderful house with all these trees and privacy and could be in Downtown Manhattan in about 45 minutes.
The house was in need when we saw it but there was so much about it that was fabulous. A room upstairs that was all windows .. this was the view .. although this was the view from the living room too.
 It was a wonderful home for 7 years. And it was a wonderful view.