It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new.
But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful.
There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.
Alan Cohen
"Outside of a dog, a book is a man's best friend.
Inside of a dog, it's too dark to read."
Groucho Marx
The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.

Saturday, December 30, 2017


You know those drops you buy at the vets , to protect your cat from fleas and ticks ?
Where are the drops to protect your cat from the drops ?

Thank goodness Merlin has long hair .. and it is already coming in .. white and soft and his scar will hopefully be covered ..

He and the others will wear flea collars , they are house cats, they won't be outside .. I will never do this again to any of my cats or dogs ..

Friday, December 29, 2017

The Cold

It is very quiet here but that is partly due to the fact that it is very cold for Florida ... like 7C .... the world is coming to an end ..

The cats have all gotten the best warm spots and I am drinking hot tea by the gallon.
It is very quiet here too ... the birds all froze.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017


Have a seat and I will tell you a story ~

A long time ago, when I was just a baby, we lived in the US where there was a large desert.
My grandfather, a Marine Sgt, had a large pit bull named Spike .. yes, Spike.

I was about 3-4 years old and my mother got busy with something in the house and I crawled off the porch and wandered out into the yard with my doll.

My mother heard the dog growl and looked out the window, in time to see me sitting on a little rise
in the yard , with that huge dog coming at me, snarling and growling ...

Mom ran as fast as she could to get to me before the dog, it was a lost race, the dog got  there first ...grabbed the rattlesnake that was coiled and about to strike me and the dog shook it to death.

Grandfather rushed the dog to the vet , thank goodness for anti-venom shots ..
Spike lived to be a really old dog, constant companion to his little girl.

Monday, December 25, 2017

From Me to You

Christmas for me today was made very pleasant, cheerful and full of silliness because my daughter came to visit.
No big party, no big deal cooking thing .. just the two of us  and a few cats hanging out and talking and giggling.
She made my day.

All that waiting and planning, all those lists and mailing and shopping and hoping everyone likes what they got ... over .. sigh ... relax .. be a cat ..

Yes, that is what I tell myself when I notice how tight my shoulders and back feel, how stiff my neck is getting ... Be A Cat ... relax ... take a bath ... take a nap .. have a nice snack with some hot tea ..

Tell me how your Christmas was , was it all you expected it to be ? worth all that work
and shopping ?
Are you full and wishing there was someone who would come in and do the dishes for you while you sleep ?
Will you be at the stores tomorrow bright and early, returning, exchanging , shopping ... ?

Are you away from it all ? lying on a beach ? napping in a hotel room ? sightseeing ? hiding at home ? shoveling snow ? planning the party for New Years ?

Christmas and New Years , time for partying, celebrating, planning and remembering ...

Enjoy ... Be Happy ... Remember what is Important ... Remember Who is Important ..

Happy Holidays to you from me ...

Christmas Time in the City- Buenos Aires

Summer Time in Buenos Aires ... everyone who can leave town.. does. Christmas is quiet ... mostly silent and the parks are mostly empty .. we loved it .

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Tuesday, December 19, 2017


So .. to help or worsen my Homesickness for Buenos Aires, I read an online travel forum.
And usually it is like most forums, some people get along, some are cranky, some are super annoying and some are just plan obnoxious. And there are thankfully, some really nice people posting.

Today I am feeling blue and homesick for Buenos Aires... where my husband and I owned a home and lived for 7 years.

And while reading and posting on the forum .. some person who is awful in so many ways, was arguing about the politics etc of living in BA when someone said something about My Not Living in BA.
Well, you know that made me feel just great.

I tried to be calm and cool and I corrected that knuckleheads mistake then I was reading the other people with their silliness.
One woman moves to a new country and becomes a citizen.
Then she meets a man or whatever and moves somewhere else and ... becomes a citizen ..

So I am listening to ... Argentine Tango CDs and fondly remembering how my husband used to love to go to Milongas with our NY friends, the ones we met in Argentina lol and while we did not dance, we enjoyed watching so much !
The music is great .. the dancing is gorgeous .. a nice memory.

Sometimes a person has to dig a little to find those nice memories .. the current and not so nice sometimes get in the way ... but dig .. its there .. waiting to be savored again ..
Our home on a Summer day

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Home ...

"You can't go Home"  ... remember that ?
I think of Buenos Aires as home , often.
NY is home and where I would go back if / when I decide to leave Florida but Buenos Aires was my home .. my husband and I were happy there, we had Tate, our dog and even though Tate died while we were living there, my memories are always of the three of us .. walking all those streets, the parks, the people all wanting to touch him, pet him, talk to us about him.
He helped so much with those early months, settling in to our new home, new life .. he was our Good Boy.
I am so thankful that he was with us as long as he was ..

Some dreadful person on a forum I used to participate on when I lived in Argentina made a snarky comment about where I live ( not in BA)  .. making me think of how nice the people were in Buenos Aires  .. how good mannered they were .. I miss that .. although people in the South are pretty nice and well mannered .. actually, most people everywhere are nice and well mannered ..
Just the rotten apples who  try to spoil things ... a bitter woman makes snide remarks to someone who was actually nice to her ... and she wonders why she has no friends ~

It is late, the stars are falling or something like that .. and the cats are asleep.
I guess it is time to turn off the lights and go to bed.

A Christmas present shopping spree will happen tomorrow ... 

Sunday, December 10, 2017

Friday, December 8, 2017

Psalm 53

Psalm 53 Sung in Aramic

I find this  to be just so beautiful .. soothing, calming, perfect ..

Sleepy, Chilly, Catty

It has cooled down to what I think is Florida Winter .. but my air conditioner went on at around
4-5:00 am and we were freezing until I got up at 6:00 am and turned it off.
I thought it was off anyway ... I am going to learn the ABCs of Florida air conditioning today.

I only used to get up at 5 or 6 am when I was going to be leaving for an airport .. or if the baby woke up for a bottle.
Look what my life has come to ~

We have a change of scenery , of a sort.
Dark grey skies , wintery looking .. I don't mind.

TGIF ....what are your weekend plans ?

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Lost Cat

                                             Lost Cat ... Bartram ... Stonefield  ... Jacksonville Fl

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

This 'n That

11:00 pm, Tuesday night , the cats are in bed waiting for me to come and turn off the lights.
I am tired but restless.
I have all these ideas and plans running around in my head and no one to discuss them with, the cats fall asleep as soon as I start to tell them .. sheesh.

It is getting chilly in North Florida .. I like that .. it feels a bit more normal.
I keep forgetting what month it is .. this sort of weather is not the middle of Winter , not Winter as I know it.
Summer was nice .. Fall.. nice ... Winter ? nah .. I am not complaining, just remarking on the huge difference . And yet ... I miss New York, I miss real Winter, I miss getting ready for Thanksgiving when the trees are losing leaves and it is chilly, getting ready for Christmas when it is cold and wondering if it will be a white Christmas .. or just a flurry ..

I am more isolated here than when I lived in NY.
I am alone as much or more than when I lived in NY ..
This is not a complaint, this is just what happened .. I left NY to be away from snow and utility bills and being alone.
I live where the utility bills are the same, I am isolated and I am alone.
Don't tell the cats I said that .

So now more decisions have to be made.
There have been some real disappointments .. people I never expected to treat me in a nasty hateful way, shame on that person , my daughter is a champion .. she has been so very thoughtful and helpful and caring ..
But she has her own life and home and a new puppy .. ( adorable does not describe it ) ...

I am feeling more like finding my own life again .. where I want to be, doing something more than sitting here day after day ... if I get to live so long, there will probably be a day when I will sit and do nothing all day long .. but for now, I would like to do some Living ... around People ...

I am not going to get lost finding a mall here, so I am shopping online for presents ... it is nice.
I like shopping this way ..

For myself as well, Sephora is one of my favorites .. Amazon, music, books ... even gardening websites .. and I never have to deal with crowds and traffic .. online shopping is a Good Thing.

What are your Good Things ?
How are you managing the holidays this year ?
Are you staying home ?
Do tell ...

I want to take this bus !

Monday, December 4, 2017

Oh Christmas Tree

Why is it that I cannot get a tree to look the way they do in magazines ? Ever ?
This is a little over the top ... ok, it is way over the top but still ..
I think more lights are needed ... not here, but on my tiny tree.
And tiny sparkly ornaments.

You see, since I am alone with 3 cats and all, there are some things that are difficult/impossible.
1- getting a tree ... as big as this one .. or even slightly shorter .. Trees are heavy !
2- keeping 3 cats out of , off of a huge tree with cat playthings ( ornaments) all over it.
3- I am the only one that would see the tree, unless I start inviting strangers in for a viewing.

So as I did last year, I put up my tiny fake tree which is sort of a topiary in its own iron pot that weighs a ton .. covered with tiny lights and small ornaments .. I put it on a chest, hoping a cat or 3 would not manage to get to it and chew things, knock over things, get electrocuted, etc.

That sure is a pretty tree ... but mine is Special ... it is a tree for one human and 3 cats .. Score !

                                                    This is not my tree but exactly like it 

Sunday, December 3, 2017

Merlin , Weather , Cooking .. ho hum

This is Merlin napping. He has this thing, he looks uncomfortable to me but he tucks his chin in and kind of curls up and off he goes to Sleepyland.
I adore him.

His wound ( made by the vet) is healing nicely .. I had the awful thought that it might be scar tissue and his hair will never grow back .. being on the back on his neck .. it will be noticeable.

On one hand ... as long as he heals and is well, I don't care how it looks.
On the other ... he is a gorgeous long haired cat and he should have hair on his neck ..
but however he looks .. as long as he is comfortable, pain free, itch free, I don't really care how his hair looks.
I am working on thinking that way about my own hair too ..

It is a grey and cool day in Florida .. most likely long and boring as usual but that's ok .. I have good books and plans to make and something I might cook .. maybe a walk to take with the camera .. maybe not ..

Wishing everyone a lovely peaceful Sunday .. will you be Christmas shopping ?
Got lists ?
 I do ... too many ... I have to start working on who has been naughty and who has been nice.

I was thinking about cooking something that takes hours to cook, fill the house with yummy scents, but then, when it is only for me ... I lose the urge .. I am thinking a good hearty soup made from leftovers might be just the right thing ..

Any recipes, feel free to leave them in the comment section .. thanks !

Have a quiet peaceful day ... tell me about your holiday decorations too !! send photos .. I will publish them :)

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Candice Cooks ... or ... Mama Mia !

1 box of Penne
Cook in one large carton of Chicken Broth
1 bunch of fresh Broccoli , sauteed in olive oil and garlic.
Add Cherry tomatoes sauteed in olive oil and garlic  to the broccoli.

When pasta is tender, add broccoli sauce , stir, leave it to soak up the broth.

Small peices of cooked chicken can be added or cooked fish. ( salmon is always good with pasta)

Bon Appetit !

Saturday / Merlin

Merlin has lost a large patch of hair on the back of his neck/shoulders where the Frontline drops burned him ..
It was almost immediate .. god knows what is in that product but believe me, I will never use that product again on any of my pets.
He seems to be doing ok ... the vet said it was a bad chemical burn and not the first he has seen from using Frontline drops on dogs or cats.
And I barely used any because I am so aware of his being older and perhaps more fragile.
But then vet said he is in as good shape as Minette who is just out of kittenhood although he is a little arthritic , but hey, so am I ..

I know anyone out there who has a beloved pet or even a child, knows how I feel ... a person who should know what they are talking about .. tells me to put these drops on my pet so there will be no fleas .. and what do I get ?
A gorgeous old cat with long hair and the most gentle disposition, with a huge chemical burn on his back, from the poison that I put there .... noooooo I don't feel terrible ... I cry every time I look at this sweet gentle old cat who just wants to nap and snuggle and eat a nice dinner in peace.

I am seething. I keep putting soothing ointment on his burns and hope for a very quick healing .. I have no idea if he will be scarred and if his hair will grow back ..

As a Public Service Announcement ...


The negatives outweigh the positives in a terrible way ... you don't want to lose a beloved pet or burn and scar it for life ... there are other ways to prevent fleas on a cat ... a flea collar is one.

Have a good weekend ... I will be here, apologizing to Merlin ..
                                          Merlin Before the Burn

Merlin after the burn .. ugly and painful.

The Morning After the Night Before

I am not quite sure where and how but I am figuring out what the cats do at night while I sleep.
Certain little cats don't handle it well, good thing she doesn't have to get up and go to work in the morning ...

Friday, December 1, 2017

Florida - You Never Know Who Is At The Door

Ha ! and I thought all I had to worry about was the green snake that wants to come hang out on the lanai .. Yes, there are coyotes and large and small birds and everything else you imagine might live in Florida ... they do warn us that there are alligators that get into our pond ... right in the middle of a gated community in the city .. but apparently, alligators have no respect for gates.

This makes me rethink the cats alone on the lanai during the day - makes me rethink walking to the mailbox ! sure there is a paved road .. sidewalks .. but also a forest and lake and well ... maybe a gator  or two ... shudder.

Can you imagine ?

Thursday, November 30, 2017

Thursday Morning Threat

Merlin is sleeping, uncomfortable I think but still purring ( which could be because of pain) but resting.
I look at him and that wound on his neck and my blood boils and I make phone calls.
I controlled myself ... I only used the "sue" word once.

He has a terrible burn on his neck from the "medicine" the doctor told me to use.
He immediately lost all the hair from the skin that was touched by this crap.
He is or was in pain and now he is sleeping .. He is old and naps a lot, he is, after all, a cat ... but he will, I hope, wake up in no pain and much happier.

I, on the other hand, would like to do something drastic to the vet ... like maybe spray some of that crap on his head ... but I will control myself.

I could not control myself with the phone call though.
I called and told the girl on the phone right away that I was talking about the vet and not her so please do not be offended or hurt by what I am going to say ....
That the vet has no clue what he is doing, that he could have killed my cat ... that he is not only inept and stupid but he is dangerous if he treats all his "patients" in such an ignorant and careless way,.
That he should be very happy that my cat is improving .. that I am not preparing a suit against him .. because that will happen if this beloved cat dies from this ignorant POS treating him with some totally unnecessary drug .. a drug that is used in chemotherapy ... on a cat with a dry skin patch.
An old Himalayan cat who means the world to me.

My daughter works for a team of attorneys ...  this is my threat today.
Let's hope Merlin is happy and comfortable this afternoon and from now on ...

me ... on the warpath ... it won't be pretty.
This is not pretty either .. the back of Merlins neck ..

Update - Merlin & the girls

Merlin slept on my bed most of the night. He does not snore but he is quite cranky when he wakes up and you want a kiss.
But then,  I have been known to be cranky in the early morning too so I let it slide. Kissing him anyway so there !

His neck is pitiful , he is pitiful... this large gorgeous cat with a large bald spot on his neck .. making his head look way too big .
I put his medicine which is like Vaseline , on his raw wound and then wrapped a wide strip of gauze around his neck .. he looks dashing. sort of . Well, if you squint and imagine really hard.

No matter how much I apologize, he won't look at me and he actually hissed at me last night.
But then .. this morning I scooped him up and ignored the growl and started kissing him and baby talking and he purred. phew ! I might be forgiven ... some day.

My hope is that by the end of the day, there will be a big difference in the look of his wound.
That I will have no more dramas , cat or otherwise.

I have learned ... that  cats are company , when alone,  even a cat can make you not feel like the only human on Earth.
Cats are more like dogs than we think ... they are affectionate, they like to snuggle and love a good warm body when it is time to sleep.
And they hear things and are alert to outside noises and voices ... mine will go stand by the door .. I know something or someone is out there and even when it is not My door... the neighbors are out there.
It isn't like having a Guard Dog but it does comfort me ...
Now if they could just learn to talk .. speak Human ... they absolutely do talk.

Merlin told me today that he wanted back up on the bed and that he loved me ...
Minnet just purred. Honey told me to put her down ... my back did too ... I have to weigh her today.

Have a good Thursday .. weekends coming !


I took Merlin to the vet who is a total jerk and charged me well over $100- for looking and talking for perhaps 3 minutes then walked out ... pretending he is really Dr Kildare ..

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Update on Merlin

My sweet boy had a (not uncommon) reaction to Hartz Mountain Flea Drops ...
To be sure he doesn't catch fleas from the outside when he is on the lanai ..otherwise, he is never out of the house and his feet never touch the grass / ground.

I put   flea drops on him because he is on the lanai and there are no solid walls, just screens .. You never know. . I thought it better to be safe than sorry.
I woke up to find my sweet beautiful cat with a bald spot where the drops went on and raw red skin .. he was not very happy and I was heartbroken, guilty feeling and very worried.
Merlin is old ... over 11 - right now I forgot exactly how old he is . He is in great shape, just don't put flea poison on his back.

The vet was pleasant and at least informative- Merlin got a shot and I am not to give him flea drops ever again.
FLEA COLLARS !!!!! Wear a flea collar ...

So he got his shot, which worried me and he is now home and resting .. and so am I.
I don't remember worrying like this when my children were small and had to see a doctor ...
Yeah, I know I did and I was always thinking the worst that could happen but the cat is like having an infant .. they can't tell you what they feel or how they feel or where it hurts ..
I speak a little Cat though so today I had it figured out quickly ... most lame brains can figure this one out.

Flea and Tick drops ... are poison. It is absorbed into their skin and they repel or kill fleas and ticks  ..
But but ... it is a cat, a living breathing cat that you have now squirted poison onto his skin.

We are lucky ... it didn't kill him ...  He got his expensive shot of cortisone and now he is napping.
My sweet beautiful boy ... who got a shot, felt like crap and still purred when I whispered in his ear that I love him   ~
  Red Heart on Apple

Hartz Mountain , Consumer Affairs & Cats

 I have 3 cats and I live in North Florida.
North South, doesn't matter, we have bugs ... mosquitoes, spiders that are all too big , snakes and lizards too ... and the usual beetles and roaches etc that I pretend do not exist.
Especially the spiders ... shuddering....

The cats have been pretty good about keeping the bug population out on the porch to a minimum .. in fact, there are never any bugs out there ... can the screens be that good ? or are there cat picnics going on ?

"Mmmm taste this beetle Minette, you'll love it .... oh wait wait, have a bit of this spider Merlin ... yummy isn't it ? "

But even having  3 cats doesn't always help .. like when I saw a snake outside the lanai ... then saw a snake come in under the lanai door ... I grabbed the cats and ran inside ... scared the pants off the snake who ran back under the door and out into the grass.

Now I have Honey. Honey of the late Michelle R who adopted a tiny kitten that turned into this creature that is dog sized and heavy .. like back ache heavy ... with this tiny meow .. makes me laugh every time.

They are all City Cats ... what do they know about bugs ? especially living with me ... Bug ? where ? dead.

So picture this ...

Cats on the lanai. sun shining . mama in the house .. snake coming in under the screen door .. Mama happens to come out into the lanai as snake makes its presence known.
Minette the fearless, goes in for the kill.
Mama grabs Minette, swoops up Merlin who is wondering what the **** is this fuss about ?? and grabs Honey and rushes into the house ... slamming sliding doors shut .. snake makes for the exit as fast as he can ... telling all his friends for weeks about the dangers of going into the house with the cats and crazy lady ...

Now ... it is a totally different situation but actually bothers me much  more.

The little homeless cat in the woods ... appears in the late afternoon and cries.
Came to the door recently .. how can I let her in ? I put my kids in the house, let her in and feed her and give her water and pet her while she purrs like the best of car motors ....then she falls asleep .. safe, she thinks .. full ...   so tired.

When she woke up, she wanted out and out she went , back into the woods.
She is not out there now but she will be later .. or now, I will worry ... I can't have her but I can love her.

I put foil along the bottom of the door to discourage snakes from sneaking into the lanai ..

Now about Hartz Mt products ...
Since it is summer and Florida, I bought the cats Ultraguard Plus flea and tick drops ..

Merlin got the first drops and got very fussy about it ... I wiped it off and gave Minette hers ..
Then I started to worry about his reaction so I wiped Minette clean too.

By evening, I noted that Merlin lost hair where the Hartz Mt crap had been applied and there were 2 red almost bloody spots about the size of dimes .. pink skin, hair came right out.

I will call them. I will complain but mostly this is a Warning.
Don't use this stuff. I am thankful Merlin is OK .. I am thankful I had not put any on the others yet .
You just don't know what or who to trust anymore ..

The Little Cat - A Conundrum

I have cats. We all know I love and live with more than one cat. Okay .. I have , as of now, 3 cats. Not so terrible.
I adopted Minette because I was deep in grief and loneliness .. She was a tiny orphan that needed me as much as I needed her.
I adopted Merlin when I saw his face online at the County Shelter site and knew right away that 1- no one was going to adopt an old cat ... really ... old  2- I fell in love with that grumpy face.
So this and that happened and I sold my house and the cats and I drove to Florida .. a neat little package, one lady with 2 cats ..
Upon arrival, my mom died. And my daughter decided that I should inherit the cat .. Poor sweeter than sweet Honey .. Honey will break your back if you try to pick her up ... She is huge ... heavy and just out of kitten hood.
She is this massive black and white cat with a tiny kitten voice meow.
The landlord said it was ok for me to have a cat ... imagine his surprise when my cat turned out to be my little tribe ... a clowder of cats ... yep ... a group of cats is a clowder..
Or in my house ... my little Tribe.

So we have been fine .. we all get along with each other, we all sleep on the bed or under the bed and One of us has their own bed .. double sized bed in a separate bedroom because Someone thinks they are Special. But somehow, when I wake up ... too early ... there are three hungry cat faces staring at me. I might not want to get up yet but it is much less painful when those little faces are there to greet me.

A couple of days ago, I heard meowing and since my cats don't actually meow unless something horrible is wrong, I dashed to see what happened.
Imagine my relief when I saw them napping then staring ... at the young grey cat outside the lanai, face pressed against the window ( sort of ) and meowing to ... come in ? eat ? be loved ?

This  little cat also has no collar and a terrible injury/new scar on her flank .. it looks like she was hit by a car but managed to sustain no permanent injury or be killed but the scar is her mark of bravery.
This little young cat with no collar, scavenging for food, begging at doors, sleeping in the sun on the grass and hiding in the forest at night. My Heart Breaks.

So against all the Rules, before I go to bed, I put out some dry cat kibble and a little dish of water.
Last night it was supposed to rain, I put out a big movers box with plastic over it ... and the dishes inside .. not sure if she used it ... but the food was gone.
This morning she was crying at the door ... I need to find her a home.
Not send her to death at a shelter .. I know this is close to impossible ... I won't keep her but I will feed her because if you know me ... you will know that this is something I just cannot do .. ever ..
knowingly let a little cat starve..

So if there are suggestions other than the shelter which is my last choice since they end up getting euthanized or never adopted ... there are so many cats in shelters.
Humans should be So Ashamed of themselves.

So at 8 am on Wednesday, I am blogging, after waking to my cats being concerned over the sound of a young grey lost cat crying at my lanai door.

If there is anyone near Jacksonville Fl with recommendations of places or people to help me with this little cat, do email me or post it here in comments. And Thank You So Very Much.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Where Is My Watch ??

Don't you just hate it when you put something down and later come back to get it and it has disappeared ? Gone .. which is especially annoying when you live alone .. and cats haven't the energy to play mind games with Mama.

My watch disappeared.
It was there , then it was not.

I wear it every day.
I put it away in the same spot every night.
I don't take it off during the day when I am out of the house ...

It is gone. Yes, that small cracking sound you hear is my heart breaking just a tiny bit more.

It was more than just a watch.
It was given to me by my husband.
It was totally unexpected and different. It is a Movado .. all stainless steel with little gold screws in it and it fits my wrist so well that I don't even feel it.

Thus we have the mystery, did it fall off at home ? did it fall off in the grocery store, parking lot ?
Where is my watch ?

The only positive side effect to this loss is that I have dusted , swept and vacuumed every inch of this place to find it possibly hiding under a large piece of furniture ...
Basically I live in 3 rooms in a 3 bedroom townhouse .. with 3 baths and a laundry room and lanai and garage and ....aggghhhh... where is my watch :(

I have to go listen to the monks chanting, I need some help finding any serenity today ...

Wishing you a serene and sunny Sunday ...

**the watch was found. hiding in plain sight. All is well that ends well. **

Friday, November 24, 2017


Autumn is my favorite time of year.
I got very excited when I saw that the trees in the parks in Buenos Aires did change color a little and then fell off, giving me a slight taste of what I really so far from "home" where I knew that certain things happened at certain times of the year .

Like Christmas being in the winter ....  Autumn leaves falling .... crisp cold nights replacing the warm summer nights and air  conditioning .. Looking forward to cooking and baking and holidays .

When Spring (Fall) came ... everyone prepared to leave the City and go to their Summer homes.
In the mountains, the countryside, the beaches of Uruguay ..or just loll around the pool at their home in the City.

We have relatives in Buenos Aires ... cousins in law. They had a gorgeous home in a residential neighborhood .. Houses behind high walls .. their home was fabulous with mostly glass walls and a green lawn and a big swimming pool with a pool house that could sleep several people with kitchen, bath .

As sometimes happens, language gets in the way and what is supposed to be fun or relaxing becomes a chore .. we ended up not visiting that often and I always think now- that if we had only spoken Castellano more fluently, we  all would have had a better time .
But I think of them fondly, how they tried to make us comfortable and how really sweet they are.

I have bites on me.
I have a pretty stray cat hanging around the back door ... peering into the lanai and making me sad and the cats annoyed.
I petted it, fed it because as wrong as it is, I could not let it starve ..
It is not there today, or maybe it is now ... I try not to look ...feel sad ... my cats growl and hiss ... This is Their Home and he can't have it ... poor cat.
Which leads me to thinking how much I hate people who do not watch over and care for their pets.
We are not living on a farm in the country .. this is a city with highways and parkways and a gazillion cars that do not stop at Kitty Crossings ..
It is a lovely cat that I have to ignore when it cries for food or just to be petted and treated like a sweet cat ... who might have fleas.

I think I will go through my closets today.
Do something useful, make lists ... plans ... what will you do today ?

Thursday, November 23, 2017

Gregorian Chant


I have been listening to this all morning ..

I am still listening to it ... it put the cats to sleep .. I will have to remember this if they get too frisky late at night.

I am feeling fine but this sort of music combined with being alone ( with cats napping) and a rainy dark day .... is perfect.

I will record this so I can play it in the car on any long drives I might take ..

I have bites all over me. I made the mistake of holding a stray cat that I brought in .. to the lanai .. but it was frantic to be outside so I let it back out .. sad to think it was at the mercy of cars and animals , cold rain etc.

Sometimes it is easier living in the city ... my heart seems to just be this large sloppy thing that goes out to every pitiful thing .. man, woman, child, animal ... I am here to feel sorry for you .. to grieve for you ... to wish there was Something I Could Do ..

Yes, I am alone on Thanksgiving.

I imagine what it would be like if I had stayed in NY ... I would have had neighbors and friends and family visiting or inviting me over ...   

In Florida, I take in pitiful cats and weep for them.

I am going to learn the words to the chant ... I actually took Latin in school and got excellent grades .. I can't balance a checkbook but I can read and translate Latin ...
How Blonde of me ~

Happy Thanksgiving

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Friday, November 17, 2017


It is SO hard to adjust to the seasons here ... it always looks the same, the sun shines, the flowers bloom and trees  stay green .. of course most of them are pine trees.

Birds  fly over ... coming South from way up North.
Not long ago, in the lake in this community, a large flock of geese stopped to take a break from all that flying, had a bite to eat and floated around , making quiet a lot of noise and probably mess in the water.

Then they took off in one grand display of  Winged Migration

The cats were SO annoying this morning.
If they are cold, get back under the damed covers and shut up !
If they are hungry, there are dishes of food all over the house !
If they want company ... get on the bed with me and STFU ...

Yes, I woke up cranky. Cold, annoyed and cranky ... oh and there were remnants of a dream that was best forgotten.

It is Friday.
I will do whatever is on my To Do List then I will go back to making plans.
This living in Limbo is depressing .. Time to do something about it..

I might need to dust off my wings.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

The Story So Far

It is not punishment to live in such a pretty place . Although an alligator has made its way into the water and will have to be escorted back to where he came from. So no small dogs, humans or cats near the water for a few days ... AS IF I would go there ever again ! Even without cats or dogs..

There are no clouds today .. pure blue skies. Chilly, a sweater or light jacket is needed.
My car is totally legal, I can drive without worry again. I admit I didn't really worry that much .. for some reason... I , who worry about Everything ... did not worry about my license plates.

Someone said to me one time, about being brave etc ... When the worst has happened .. you sort of don't worry about the same stuff the way you used to ...

Perhaps this is true for me ... I only worry about the cats and having enough gas in the car .. and making sure that all the doors are locked  .. the crime rate in this city is not good ... shameful.

So plans are still being mulled over.

A Story For You :

Once upon a time, there was a man who was married to a lady .. they were madly in love  .. every year they laughed and commented on Another Year and Still being so In Love.
They were both travelers .. they loved to go to faraway places and see things and meet people and hear different languages and music and see the sights .
The Man had lived in quite a few Faraway places .. wonderful places ... India, Kashmir and Paris and London and Italy etc.
He knew People which was quite a kick for the Lady who got to hear the stories, see the photos, make plans to see them again , with him ... to meet his friends and go to their concerts and listen to them talk and to travel to faraway places ... with him.

Then one day, that chapter ended and the lady had to start figuring out how to go on with the Story.
She thought a change of scenery would be good.
She thought a change of climate would be pleasant.
She packed, changed address, drove a long way with the cats and ideas and plans and .........

to be continued ..

Tuesday, November 14, 2017

A Touch of Red

I took this photo years ago. On one of our daily walks all over the city of Buenos Aires .. camera in hand, dog leash in the other hand ... husband by my side ... Boy , have times changed.

Monday, November 13, 2017

The Cat Saga

When everything bad happened in our new home in New York .. I sat for days , alone and quiet .. waiting.
Waiting for something .. not sure what  .. I didn't know then, I am not sure now .. but I remembered how my husband would tell me to just sit down somewhere comfortable and be still, be quiet and breathe ... it will all happen ..
So that is what I did ... I would sit and just be still ... let my mind drift .. not to linger on one thought or another too long .. just drift and it would settle in its own time and I would be more peaceful.

My husband lived in India .. he trained with someone well known  and eventually taught people how to Meditate .. how to Be Still ...
So it was easy for him to tell me how to relax , how to avoid a panic attack , how to Be Still.

I sit around too much these days , I take walks and go to the market ( by car) but it isn't the same as it used to be .. I am not in the same great shape I was when we got back to the US ...

So I have started taking walks in the afternoon and while I live in a 2 story condo and run  up and down a big flight of stairs all day long .. it feels better to do that walking/running outdoors, where you can breathe and clear the cobwebs ..

I , through fate and perhaps someone watching ... am the mother of 3 cats.
Minette I intended to get ... Merlin was a surprise that I wanted and got ... Honey .. my moms sweet huge baby was not expected, wanted or even considered ... until I was informed that she would be put in a shelter or whatever ... then I took her.. how could I not ?
I loved my mom. She loved her cat. I love my cats. How could I not take Honey ??
Who will take my babies ? Merlin would be so confused and sad .. and afraid. He isn't that brave anymore .. my poor old man with bad eyesight.

Minette would be freaked out because she is still a baby girl with only Merlin and I for a family, with Honey now too ... she knows nothing else .

And Honey, sweet huge Honey, no one would want her and no one would treat her well.
She can beat up a dog. She has the meow of a tiny cat ... She breaks my back when I pick her up ..
but when she purrs, I will pick her up a dozen times.

A couple of days ago .. the cats were out on the lanai, their daytime home ... they don't want to come in anymore, they love the lanai and the fresh air and sunshine for naps all day.. and an occasional curiosity, like the sound of big birds, the men who ride standing up lawn mowers , a snake , etc.
But it was none of those things .. it was a cat.
A lovely cat ... black and white. Came right to the door like it knew it was home .. how could I let it in ?? I made bowls of food and water and put it outside the lanai door.
It ate, drank and left.
Now I worry about it, I wait to see it , I wonder ...

I got my license plates. I am a legal driver in Florida. Guess I will move back to New York . Laughing. Out. Loud. or maybe I'm not ..

Monday , Cat Monday

So far it has been a perfect Monday ...
I was awakened too early by grumpy cats .. some want in , some want out, some want to snuggle, others are just plain grumpy.
Count me in   the grumpy camp.

We all traipsed down to the kitchen, way before 8 am and food was quickly arranged in the right bowl for the right kitty and peace returned ..
Except for that faint meowing I heard ..... the lost cat.

There he was .. outside my lanai door, meowing, huddled close to the screen, away from the wet grass and chill of the early grey morning ..

I know all the Smart things to do and Not to do and How I should manage things .. I did that yesterday. But today, this is a damp, chilled, lost young cat with a not very old wound that the neighbor thinks is from being hit by a car ... it walks, it talks, it eats and meows at the top of its lungs so it is more well than not ... except .. it doesn't seem to have a Home.
All cats should have a Home. No matter how small, rich, poor or warm ... there should be at least one person who cares about a little helpless animal that really doesn't ask for much at all.
And will never send you a bill for services rendered and never gives up on you or shuns you or decides they like the Other cat better ...

So I got disposable plastic containers ( thank you local bakery) and one was filled with water, good clean water ... and one with the mistake kibble cat food I bought .. It was in the cupboard to donate to some shelter, but I had not gotten around to finding the shelter and doing it  ... now it is being put to use ... Everything is for a Reason.

So this poor (really beautiful) cat is dry and eating its breakfast at the moment.
The damage on its thigh is not quite as angry looking. The lady next door took photos so she can find out hopefully, where he belongs.

For now at least .. he is not starving and if worse comes to worse, there is shelter on my lanai or the lady's next door.

I have to make plans and figure out what to do with myself.
I have to do laundry and clean up the condo a little ... did you know cat hair reproduced ? yeah.
Start out with 2 and there are 10 just a few minutes later.

So this is my Monday List of Things To Do ...
                  Find a home for a cat.

Cats are like potato chips.
You can never have just one.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

Make It Memorable

I would like  to go Home.
Yeah, New York.Especially at this time of year ..
This is the time of year that I arrived in NYCity for the first time ... meeting my husband within the first month that I was there ...

The weather is dreary today but I sort of like that, I never realized how sick you can get of the same blue skies and sunshine every day ...
As Sarah Miles said in the film White Mischief ... upon waking up and walking over to look out the window .... "Another F*ing Beautiful Day "

I now get excited when it is cloudy and cool.
I also have cats to cope with ... no, not the babies that live with me ... the babies that Want to live with me.
A new little cat has shown up at the back of my home, by the lanai door ... a little thing, grey tiger almost kitten .. meows and waits ... someone must have let it live inside and go outside .. stupid humans.
The miracle is ... a car has not run over it yet ... a creature out in that forest hasn't eaten it yet ...
I have not adopted it yet ...

I am feeding it though .. I can't help it . It is not in me to let a small half adult cat/kitten starve when I have bags and bags of cat food and 3 very well fed cats ... We all have our ... issues .. children and animals are mine. The helpless ones ... those who depend on others for food, shelter, life .. and if they are really lucky , love.
I can't do anything about this kitten but keep it fed and watered when possible.

In New York, on my little acre Upstate, I had a corn field as a back neighbor ... so there were plenty of deer in my garden and walking through the property to go to a lake across the street ... behind the neighbor's house.
We all knew what was happening and when and everyone was cool with it .
When the mother deer would cautiously walk across the street with little fawns following close to her, I fought the urge to run out and be sure no cars would race down the street and hit one of my deer.
Only once did I actually stop a car ... but he saw it and would have stopped anyway .. the mama deer with 2 babies walking close to her side ..

I don't want to hear about the negative side of having deer in the garden ... unless someone wants to hear the negative aspects of ... who lives next door, where your kids are at night, who votes and why and what will the saving of a deer matter in the grand scheme of things other than my heart won't be that little  bit heavier ?

I have all these books that my sister in law has given me over the years.
I donated bags of them to the ElderCare Home near where I lived .. in Chatham NY.
I'm telling you ... the choice is .. you look around and there are all these books and you won't read them again and they are taking up room and gathering dust ..
1- throw them away ( I never ever throw away a book)
2- donate them to a hospital, nursing home, free book exchange ....

 So it is 10 am on a Saturday morning in Florida on November 11th ..
Have a great weekend .. make it memorable. 

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

What's in a Name ?

My daughter is digging through the vaults of time and places long forgotten and digging up our ancestors.
I am having such fun, I do nothing, each day she gives me a gift of information about people from so long ago and far away and yet, here I am and they were my family ... I am "from them " .. if you know what I mean.

My mothers two sisters, married brothers (Pringles) so there are a whole lotta Pringles in my family ..
Today's google search ( my version of research on the family tree) was pretty good ..
Old stone towers and keeps and rolling Scottish countryside .. 

And when I was in my 20s and at home with small children, I used to read Historic Romance novels so you can imagine what I am picturing ... right back there in my ancestors neighborhoods ... rolling hills, Castle Keeps and horsemen and a sword fight now and then ...

I have a friend in Scotland, I sent her the news ... we are long lost sisters ... well, stranger things can happen ..  Hicksville , Long Island NY was founded by one of my ancestors ... how bout dat ?

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

I Don't Care

I just realized that I am posting cat photos quite a lot ... I have to be careful with that. The old cat lady thing creeps up on you and there you are,  when you least expect it , a crazy cat lady.

Yes,  this is a dog .

The cats are soaking up warm Florida sunshine.
The cats are on the lookout for the sweet and beautiful cat that came to the door of the lanai last night, asking if he could come in.
We will not speak of how hard it was for me to say no.
So I gave him a lot of food and water.
There was some food and water left this morning but so far, no sign of the beautiful cat ..
I am torn about it .. I hope it is back home where it is safe and cared for.
I can't take it in, so let it be in its own home. I am glad I got to see it and feed it. Let that be enough.

Friends are taking trips and I want to go on one too !
I want to visit Buenos Aires the most ... but there is NY and a whole list of places I want to go ..
For now- I will appreciate the weather and the fact that it is not and probably will not snow here in the next few months.

Last Christmas was awful so I am also hoping that this year it will be better, it won't take much for it to be better ..
I have decided to just drift along while I read and ponder and figure and make decisions at another time. If I have to be bored and lonely  in the winter, at least let it be sunny and warm. Next winter we will plan for ...

My daughter has one of the cutest ... no, The Cutest puppy ever.
She has a little baby girl Shih Tzu ... I have never had a tiny dog except for puppies but an adult puppy sized dog is appealing... of course, my cats are bigger but that might be fun.

I have discovered that I have a couple of car scratches from parking lot a**holes ...  at the supermarket .
I have a black car. One scratch is all the way down to the white underneath ..
One door has a tiny dent ... w t f ?

So this is another reason why I am best off staying home today.
I have no ... what's that thing that keeps you from saying what you are thinking ?
or saying something threatening to a stranger ? Here in Florida, you never know who has a gun so I have to keep my temper from getting me in trouble ..
Not just temper ... since I am alone so much, I find I just say what I think without stopping and editing what will ruffle feathers etc ...

Yes, I am getting to be a Curmudgeon ... and right now ... I don't care.

Monday, November 6, 2017

Little Cat

Today would have been my  Anniversary ..
My 46th Anniversary.

We would have had plans made for a trip, most likely .. that was our usual Anniversary celebration ..
That and my Birthday in March.

We went to London on our Anniversary  ..then we went back on my birthday  ... then to Paris ... then to Argentina ... all those years , all those lovely celebrations .

And today ... so far ... I have spent the morning trying to feed a lost cat that sits in the forest behind my home and meows and runs away if I  open the door.
It is a beautiful cat .. sort of long haired   but colors of a grey tiger cat  with beautiful  big green eyes.
Still so young .. afraid .. breaks my heart.

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Tuesday, October 31, 2017


November is a month that is full of all sorts of things for me ... memories, good, bad and sad.
I love November as far as weather and fall colors and good memories through the years ..
My moms birthday was November ..
My husband and I were married November 6th, I used to see it as the time fun started, cooler temps, weekends in Upstate NY with leaves falling and apple picking and baking and family dinners .
Quite a few family members have birthdays in November ... it has mostly been a good month for all of us .
Even in Florida, the weather has cooled down to a crisp chill at night and while there are no trees changing colors that I can see .. it feels good ... the air smells good .. it is Autumn .

I wish I was in New York right now, I would like seeing those trees in all their glory, reds and golds and piles of leaves on the ground, the smell of burning on weekends when the raking and cleaning up happens.

Here it is crisp and cool .. There are no fall colors in the trees though .. there are only pine trees.
But it feels good out there .. the cats nap out on the lanai then stagger into the house and nap on the sofa ..
I guess Autumn is Nap Time for some creatures ..

Maybe I will try that ...

Happy Autumn ~

Friday, October 27, 2017


  On the walk to the  mailbox.
I might be bored to tears and lonely a lot of the time but I can't deny it is a pleasant place to be.

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